Thursday, May 07, 2009

I Can't Hear You

In the course of the last 30 minutes, I have mentally gone through a list of at least twenty things I should be doing and feel guilty about not doing. Here's just a sampling:

  1. Teaching Linus to draw circles and vertical lines. I have a list of milestones now and according to the list he needs to know this before he's two and that's like 2 months away and I HAVEN'T DONE IT YET.
  2. Make a decision about what to do with the 9 pounds of strawberries we just picked this morning. Pie, jam, dipped in chocolate, frozen pops... I need to do something before they end up teetering on the line between ripe and overripe like the last batch.
  3. Paint my kitchen floor. I so want to do this but have to purchase the TSP cleaner first which requires a trip to Lowes and that means battling Linus into the carseat which I hate or going during nap time which I won't.
  4. Creating fun and educational activities for Linus to do that he hasn't already done a thousand times before. I mean I need to be teaching him those circles and lines and not to mention how to cut (that's on the checklist too).
  5. Exercising because I've totally bummed out on finishing the Shred. Of course this is largely due to the fact that we had visitors and that threw the entire schedule off and it's also partially my Adrian's fault because I he can't force myhimself out of bed the twenty minutes earlier that it would require. IT'S 20 MINUTES, why can't I commit?
  6. Potty train Linus because wouldn't you know when the good folks from Early Intervention services assessed Linus to learn that he didn't qualify for speech services, they did tell me that he seems more than ready to potty train and not to miss the window. I was intending to wait until closer to 3 or when I felt motivated like maybe winter or at least when he could TELL ME HE NEEDS TO PEE with words instead of my having to guess and question awaiting some kind of confirmation.
  7. Or how about figuring out what to make for dinner? I need to do that but cooking just isn't one of my favorite things right now especially when it doesn't involve chocolate or at least lots and lots of sugar.
  8. Scheduling a haircut. I need one BAD. I want one worse. Picking up the phone to schedule the appointment requires deciding if I will try a new place where I'm positive they won't have an available time or going back to my standard where I get great haircuts if not a new look.
  9. Planning Linus's 2nd birthday party. I really, really want to have a party for him which requires planning and despite having tons of ideas (construction theme, baby) I don't really have the motivation to get started.
  10. Writing a blog post that is actually quality or at least not random. I mean Linus has attended his first baseball game and we went strawberry picking which are all great blog fodder and could even be used over at Triangle Mamas where I have been silent for too long, but the pressure to compose and not just spew is too much.
And that's only a few of the things that I'm feeling guilty about not doing. I seriously have a problem although I'm unsure whether to identify the problem as guilt, indecision, or just laziness.

Of course, I'd like to tell you that after using all that mental energy to feel guilty about all things undone, I went ahead and attacked at least one. Instead, though, I did what any bloggy mom would do and I read blog posts. (Of course, I didn't comment so add that to my guilt list.)


Midwest Mom said...


You do realize that blogging is designed to be a no-pressure environment, right? :D

My favorite piece of guilt I would just like to lift from your shoulders is the strawberries. Can you shoot at least 4 lbs of them through the computer into my mouth! I'm so jealous! We won't even think about strawberries here for another 3 weeks.

So, count your blessings. And if you need to be reminded of all the amazing things that make you, as a mother, special, come on by Midwest Moms. You're always welcome, whether you leave a comment or not.

I hope you have a very happy mother's day. You totally deserve it.

- Julia at Midwest Moms

Chelsea + Jonathan said...

Mmm strawberries. We're always accepting donations around here :)

Don't forget to give yourself some credit for all of the things that Linus is doing, which is a whole lot of things. I also tend to worry that I'm not doing enough, or not doing things right, or failing to meet someone's expectations (though not in the motherhood realm... yet). But sometimes you just have to take a step back and say hey, I don't suck. ;) Because you don't!

Mike said...

You're a great mom. Remember that.

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Marty, a.k.a. canape said...

Seriously. I could copy and paste so much of this into my own blog post.

Pressure to post. Reading posts when I should be doing anything else.

Shredding slacktitude.

I could throw in beer and ice cream to my post and leave out potty training.