Monday, April 13, 2009

Far From Perfect

Today was a rough day. Mondays often are. It was one of those days where nothing goes right, everything feels like a battle, and being at home feels like a sentence. I don't know how many times I found myself wishing for a mental wellness day. I don't know how many times I found myself close to tears. I don't know how many times I found myself yelling at Linus, at a cat, at Adrian, or at the world in general. I hate days like this. I turn into a wicked witch and all patience disappears.

On days like this, I just want to crawl back into bed, bury my head under the covers, and wish it all away. But I don't wish it all away, I never would. I love my life, my husband, my son, and even my cats.

There was one point in the day when I found myself on the verge of crying or screaming or something, and I turned to Linus very calmly and said, "Mommy's had it. She just can't deal with this today." Linus looked up at me with his big blue eyes, gave me a piercing smile, and shuffled over and wrapped himself around my legs in a much needed hug.

It's days like this that make me wonder if I'm cut out to be a stay-at-home Mom, but it's moments like that which make me positive I wouldn't have it any other way.


Hannah said...


CSO said...

You are definitely not alone in that.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Aw, he's perceptive at least!

Missy said...

I hear you, Abby! You are definitely not alone. We as moms would never change it, but a mental health day (alone) would be nice every now and then...wouldn't it?

Midwest Mom said...

You know, we had a rough Monday, too. It must have been overload from such a full Easter. ... like a full day-long sugar letdown times three.


(But today has been wonderful... the boys are finally back in school!)

And mommy is enjoying the quiet.

- Julia

Miche said...

We all have these days :) AND I have great news! We will be back in the Raleigh area on the 10th of May SO we will have to meet up for a playdate, momdate or something! I'll email you when we are back so we can actually meet in real life and have an excuse to go shopping :) lol!

Marty, a.k.a. canape said...

Nothing like that hug from your little boy. Nothing in the world.

Chelsea + Jonathan said...

I think it's good for kids to hear that sometimes, too. We used to help our preschoolers with some emotional probs understand their own emotions and understand the group leaders' emotions too, so we'd say "Miss Chelsea is feeling grouchy today. She didn't get enough sleep and little things are making her mad today." and then the kids could help by offering comfort or sharing a time when they felt mad, etc. It's a good time to teach empathy and open up discussions about feelings. Linus is lucky to have you!